Fuck shit fuck. That's all I have to say. I'm headed down that path that I have chosen so many times in the past. I had a few weeks in which I was not giving it my all, eating as I pleased, exercising sporadically, and here I am. Fucked. Square one. I need to start over from scratch with depriving my body of all the crap, (and too much of it) before I gain back the near 20 pounds I have lost. I just have to do it, and that's all there is to it.
If I have learned anything from all the blogs I follow, it is that there are no days off. There is no time when I just take a break from this lifestyle because I have other stuff going on. I know I can do this. Perhaps I need to read this blog from beginning to end. I just have to do it, and that's all there is to it.
I don't know. I just have to find the strength and pull it together. All of it. The morning exercise, the increased protein, the grapefruit, the lack of sugar/sweets, the water drinking, the resistance training. I just have to do it, and that's all there is to it.
Tomorrow I will be on track with my 4 mile run for 1/2 marathon training. Last year's race is too fresh in my mind for me not to train hard this year. I am starting from such a better place then I was last year as well. I can do this. I just have to do it, and that's all there is to it.