An Apology

Dear Body,

I am so sorry for the way I've treated you the past decade. It was never my intention to hurt you, and keep you from being all you could be. I'm sorry for all the false and short-lived attempts at bettering things, only to continue to hurt you more and more. I'm sorry for taking you for granted, and not lavishing you with the praise, love, exercise, and healthy foods that you so deserve. I beg for your forgiveness, if it is not too late.

You see, it was today that it finally dawned on me how incredible you are. It is beyond embarrassing to admit that after our 30 year relationship, I'm only realizing this now. No matter how much I take, you continue to give. No matter how much I abuse you, you bounce back able to take more. And when I'm good to you, really good to you, you reward me. How you hold no grudges is nothing short of a miracle.

Today, as I was past the half-way mark in my 3 mile run, something in you lit up. It was as if you had awakened from a deep sleep, or left the place that you go when I'm not good to you, and came alive. Skeptics may call it a 'second wind' but I know better. I know that it was you letting go of the past. It was you forgiving me, and showing me that you are willing to move forward, as long as I keep up my end of the bargain. Yes, 10 weeks is a fair test for you to give me, fuck, 5 years, 10 years, or the rest of my lifetime is a fair amount of time to make me work for your forgiveness.

We will always have each other. I have forgotten this in the past, but I will never forget it again. I love everything about you, and would not have you any other way. I promise to treat you right, and give you everything you deserve. It will take work, and we will have our fights, but my selfishness and lack of respect ends here. You'll see.

Love,
Violet