Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Suck it up Buttercup

This is pretty much how I feel today. I keep waiting for someone to write something interesting on Facebook, or send me an e-mail, or for one of my favorite bloggers to have a new post. I keep incessantly checking these things, wanting instant gratification, and a distraction from the work I should be doing. The work I'm getting PAID to do.

What I really need to do is just focus on my job. The distractions will always be there. In fact, there will be enough distractions that are unpredictable/unplanned that I do not need to continue to keep searching for them. Working at this job is sort of a metaphor for my weight loss journey. When I first got hired, I was so eager, and would work 10 hour days and weekends without thinking about it. I came in at 7am, ready for anything. Now, I can barely pull myself out of bed to get here (I show up around 9am, after I work out or even if I don't). I know having this job is essential, because it pays all my bills, but I'm just not that into it. Time for a new job? For sure. But how do I hang on in the mean time?

I see the same pattern happening with my new routine/lifestyle. At first I was flawless. Now, I'm just kinda...meh. Still going through the motions, but not nearly with as much enthusiasm as in the beginning. Don't get me wrong, I know this routine/lifestyle is essential to my well being, but I just feel like its time for something new.

This thinking I believe is a product of our culture. At least my Generation X culture, needing things NOW. Being able to always get things NOW. Never being "bored" yet always being bored. What it comes down to is a lack of patience, and a lack of being grateful for the things I do have.

My job is a pretty sweet set up. I can come in after 9am. I can wear flippy-floppies and jeans every day. My boss is rarely in the office. I do most of my blogging at work. I can come and go as I please, as long as I put in an 8 hourish day. I DO have to put up with a crazy boss, low pay for what I do, and a very unconventional working environment, but hey, I should probably be thankful that I have a job in this economy!

I have made great progress towards being a healthier individual with my new eating and exercise routine. I have lost 20 pounds 4 months. I can run 5 miles! I have a blog that people read everyday. I need to be thankful for what I do have, and all that I have accomplished so far. I need to remember that just as its essential for me to have a job that pays the bills, its essential for me to have a routine that keeps me healthy.

Here's me sucking it up and moving on...
Back to work (both paid and unpaid)!


  1. Is that your new house that D and P are laying on the floor at? ALSO I UPDATED TODAY! I AM A FAVORITE BLOG RIGHT!?!!? Right!?!?!

    ...you don't have to answer.

  2. No, that is the condo. Can't you tell how small it is? That's why Dave is lying diagonal, cause that's the only way he fits!

    Yes, Lea, you are one of my favorites. Duh.

  3. I'm so happy for you sweetie! I love that pic! xo