This is pretty much how I feel today. I keep waiting for someone to write something interesting on Facebook, or send me an e-mail, or for one of my favorite bloggers to have a new post. I keep incessantly checking these things, wanting instant gratification, and a distraction from the work I should be doing. The work I'm getting PAID to do.
What I really need to do is just focus on my job. The distractions will always be there. In fact, there will be enough distractions that are unpredictable/unplanned that I do not need to continue to keep searching for them. Working at this job is sort of a metaphor for my weight loss journey. When I first got hired, I was so eager, and would work 10 hour days and weekends without thinking about it. I came in at 7am, ready for anything. Now, I can barely pull myself out of bed to get here (I show up around 9am, after I work out or even if I don't). I know having this job is essential, because it pays all my bills, but I'm just not that into it. Time for a new job? For sure. But how do I hang on in the mean time?
I see the same pattern happening with my new routine/lifestyle. At first I was flawless. Now, I'm just kinda...meh. Still going through the motions, but not nearly with as much enthusiasm as in the beginning. Don't get me wrong, I know this routine/lifestyle is essential to my well being, but I just feel like its time for something new.
This thinking I believe is a product of our culture. At least my Generation X culture, needing things NOW. Being able to always get things NOW. Never being "bored" yet always being bored. What it comes down to is a lack of patience, and a lack of being grateful for the things I do have.
My job is a pretty sweet set up. I can come in after 9am. I can wear flippy-floppies and jeans every day. My boss is rarely in the office. I do most of my blogging at work. I can come and go as I please, as long as I put in an 8 hourish day. I DO have to put up with a crazy boss, low pay for what I do, and a very unconventional working environment, but hey, I should probably be thankful that I have a job in this economy!
I have made great progress towards being a healthier individual with my new eating and exercise routine. I have lost 20 pounds 4 months. I can run 5 miles! I have a blog that people read everyday. I need to be thankful for what I do have, and all that I have accomplished so far. I need to remember that just as its essential for me to have a job that pays the bills, its essential for me to have a routine that keeps me healthy.
Here's me sucking it up and moving on...
Back to work (both paid and unpaid)!