I'm not running the 1/2 marathon on Saturday. I have 50 'acceptable' reasons, but only 2 good ones. This is NOT pre-race anxiety, or an attempt at attention getting.
1. I'm not ready. Flat out. Running this marathon was a tactic from my previous "tried and failed many times" ways. I have completely revolutionized the way I eat, and now that I have that very important piece of the puzzle figured out, I need to come up with a new way to incorporate exercise into my routine. As I dove head first into this Paleo thing, my exercise sort of went out the window (apparently, I can't walk and chew gum at the same time). However, I FIRMLY believe that discovering Paleo is the BEST thing I have done for myself, and I was willing to sacrifice some cardio fitness and strength temporarily while I figured my shit out. My run on Tuesday proved that I did in fact lose some fitness over the past 3 weeks or so, and there is no way I can prepare for 13 miles in 4 days.
Now that I have a good grasp on the Paleo concept, I will begin working on getting myself back up to speed with running and my strength workouts. I have a new race to look forward to in October...the Glide Floss Bridge to Bridge in San Francisco.
2. I already proved to myself that I can do it. Last year, I completed this very same 1/2 marathon course on virtually no training and approximately 20 pounds heavier. I wanted the next time I participated (this year) to be different. I wanted to be able to run the whole way. If I'm not where I wanted to be (and I'm not), then all I'm going to be doing is the same as last year- proving that I can do it. No. That's not what I want. I want to be performing at a new level.
I'm not happy about this, but I know I'm doing the right thing. There will be more 1/2 marathons, I will get back to where I was. Sometimes I just have to take one step backwards to move two steps forward. You'll see, then LOOK OUT!