"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not. But remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."
I can't think of a more perfect quote to come across my path to describe my feelings about my health to date. Its always about perspective. Its so easy to get down on myself when I keep setting the bar higher and higher. I have to remember how not too long ago, the bar was set where I'm at now!
Lately I have been taking some things for granted that used to be things I only hoped for:
- No problems finding clothes/making outfits from my closet for work/outings
- I have more then 2 pairs of pants that I'm comfortable wearing- in fact nearly weekly I send a bag of frumpy clothes to Goodwill
- I'm able to head out for a run with other active friends and keep up
- Not terrified of cameras anymore
- I'm 100% secure in my food choices, even if it means odd looks from others
The above quote can also be interpreted a slightly different way, and mean roughly "don't make excuses." One thing is certain, we always find the time/money/energy to do whatever it is we really want to do. No matter what. I used to spend so much time dreaming about what I didn't have, I never made the time to actually take the necessary steps to get where I wanted to be. What did I do? Replaced thoughts (daydreams) with planning, and words with doing. Did I get it right away? No. It takes (still takes) lots of practice. The more I practice, the better I get. Weird.
On an unrelated note, now that I'm back to running more, I am reminded of a strange phenomenon that seems to plague me. People cheer me on/comment on my running ALL.THE.TIME. Does this happen to anyone else? I remember in college when I was running a lot after class, I would always run by this old man on my way out to the trail, and he would always say to me "you're going to get skinny!!" (funny thing is I was about 30lbs lighter than I am now). A few years ago when I took up running on my lunch break at my old job, I would frequently run by this one dude, and he would always say "great job, you're doing great!" A few days ago, I was on my run back to work from the gym, and this woman was walking to her car, and she looked up at me and said "keep it up!" Today, I had 2 people comment to me, one old (presumably homeless) man told me I was beautiful, and then at a stoplight, some other dude said "hey, you were here running yesterday, at this same time!" I was like, "yup." I must put out some "I'm dying please encourage me" vibe when I run. Either that, or I look like someone who is out for their very first run ever, and if I don't get encouragement, it will be my last run ever. Oh, well. I'm sure they all mean well. Its just weird to me. I guess I could stop writing "cheer me on" on my forehead before I head out for a run...
Another unrelated note...today I did 45 chest-to-bar pull-ups with the black band over the course of the workout. Yeah...definitely getting more comfortable with the movement. Might be time to switch to green band (slightly smaller) soon.